Friday, February 12, 2016

OOTD // Single But Not Alone

If you want to know how single I  am, check the length of my leg hair. After you're done puking, you'll come to the swift realization that Linda does not give a rat's single poop pellet about what some guy may desire from me or any other expectations he may have.

I've actually avoided any of that pressure for almost 2 years now. And I mean absolutely none. No flirty texts back and forth with someone. No meaningful glances exchanged in classes. No butterflies dropping nerve bombs in the pits of my stomach. Not a pipsqueak.
And guess what? I'm still an operating (even happy!) human being.

It can be frustrating to me then whenever I'm talking with old friends or older family members, and if I so much as mention a male name in passing, they'll pounce on it like a chocolate covered mango and try to pry out a story that's not even there.
Um, no, "John" is my way-too-old teacher...

Then if a bit of that annoyance eeks out, I get chided with the old: "You'll meet someone someday, just you wait."

Because according to these beloved people I know (seriously, love you guys, but...), my days are meaningless and hinge on the "someday" when I meet this someone.

I won't go on and on, because I've talked about this topic before. However, it seems no matter how much I try to express myself fluently in a way that can be understood, I'll always be met with that patronizing smile and a pat on the head that says I don't know any better.

Maybe I don't know a lot of things, but this I do - I don't need another person to find joy and happiness. Perhaps down the road, I will meet this "someone". But my days are not empty and my joy certainly don't hinge on whether I do or not. I've been blessed with deep friendships with others, a rekindled relationship with my Savior, and roots that dig deep in the knowledge of who I am and an acceptance of that.

So when that day arrives where being single is third-wheeled hardcore, I hope you have a lovely Valentines Day, whether you have a significant other or not, and that you have found joy in wells that will never run dry. Now excuse my poetic self, for I've got a date to plan with Netflix, my gal pals, and Dean Winchester!

And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.
Colossians 3:14

PS: Check out the collab video I did with ClasssCulture over on YouTube featuring a day and night Valentines OOTD looks!

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

OOTD // Killin It

This shirt is lying, but at least it gives off the bravado of someone who feels confident in what they're doing! And it never hurts to have a little confidence boost, 

This tee (get it HERE) is my latest item from Shein, and I've found another winner! A graphic tee in a black and white palette? You can't possibly go wrong. I styled it with a plaid tied around the waist and my thrifted Adidas sneakers for another sporty-street look. 

You know, it's interesting to see how things change. I asked my friend what she remembers noticing about me when she first met me, and she said: "You wore awesome heeled shoes that no one else had the guts to wear at school."

Now look at me - constantly in sneakers and flat heeled boots. While that transition was necessary (seriously, I walk everywhere here), I miss it at times. I was still in denial last year and hauled tons of unnecessary shoes with me that received zero wear. Finally, I came to the acknowledgement that it wasn't worth it to have dozens of heels and wedges crowding precious space in my apartment. It was time to cut down! While I definitely don't regret that decision there are times I wish I had that beautiful line up of ridiculous yet tantalizing heels on my shelves...

But then I think about how quickly I  can run away and easily kick ass in my sporty shoes and I feel much better!

PS: To those of you who read my last post, thank you so much for your encouragment, love, and prayers - I'm happy to say that it's likely my mom will be discharged from the hospital today!! All I can say is that it's the best birthday present I could ask for.

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

LIFE LATELY // I Hate Hospitals

I've been a patient in hospitals more times in my short life than I'd care to recount. 
But a couple nights ago, I would've given anything to be the one in that horrid hospital bed instead of my mom. Because that's where she landed, riddled with all the drugs and needles that always accompany such visits.

If you follow me on Instagram, you might've noticed my post about my mom.
Thank you to everyone for the wonderful response, support, and love. 
Some people may scorn social media, but I'm in awe of what it can accomplish, and I believe every positive thought, vibe, and prayer that was sent our way did what it intended. It helped heal.

While initially I was told it had been a heart attack, it turns out my mother had suffered a stroke. What was unusual about it was the following 24 hours where she faded in and out, having the symptoms of a stroke wash over her and recede like a wave that never stopped.

I dropped everything and rushed back home to be with her.

Since I was a little girl, I had the self awareness to realize that my parents were older. Then dark thoughts of what I would do, what would happen, and other scenarios would plague me. Having this hit out of the blue sent all those fears rushing back to the forefront of my mind. Seeing someone you love and view as astonishingly vibrant get hit with a glimpse of their mortality is hard.

However, it is a part of life. It's not only age that can end you. Every moment of every day, the breath you draw is a gift. It's good to remember that.

We're incredibly grateful that mom is bouncing back to her old self! She's alert, talking more easily, and ordering bowls upon bowls of rice from the room service here. The nurses are already falling in love with her feisty yet sweet nature, as everyone always ends up doing. 

Anyway, things should go back to normal on this blog, but it almost felt weird to ignore what happened and continue on as if everything was peachy keen and perfect in blogland. 
The reality is that it's not. It rarely is. 

But if you relish each breath and moment that you're gloriously living...well, what could be more perfect?

Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.
James 4:14

Monday, February 8, 2016

MUSIC MONDAY // FEELS

If you're a fan of electro-pop, ambient tunes, take a listen to this week's feature, FEELS!
Occasionally, I'll get an e-mail from musical groups sending me their work to listen to, and while not all hits, I have come across a few artists I end up loving. FEELS is such a group.





FEELS is a Helsinki-based band who have been gaining attention in Finland, especially with their recent, global release of "If You'd Meet Me Tonight."

Personally, I can't stop dancing around to "I Wished for Butterflies"
Which tune do you like best? So far they don't have too much out, but more work will be released in March, so keep an ear out! I have a feeling that they'll slowly start making waves around the world. As if to confirm my sentiments, there's this article from a guy in South Africa that makes for an entertaining read.

The trio's description for their sound?
"Epic, gripping, and toned with northern melancholy."
For fans of: BØRNS, Phantogram 

Check them out!
Website: http://www.feelsfeels.com/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thisisfeels
Souncloud: https://soundcloud.com/feelsfeels

Happy Monday!
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